SOUL SISTERS.

FALL 2009 ™

Friends are the pearls of our life. This word bears its great meaning only to those who could understand the greatness of its meaning. It's something sacred, it needs to be cherished and built up for many years with much care. Goran Stojanov once said, "One should always take care when making a choice of a friend - as the friends are the ones you pick by yourself." My opinion is a bit different than Goran's, I prefer to say, "Friends come and go, but with the precious few, we shall live our lives happily."

I agree that friends come in to our life spontaneously. Therefore, there is little more than picking a part. Making Friends is the process, which is a very unique one. It depends on the person one is trying to become friends with, it depends on one's gender, it depends on one's age, but most importantly it depends on one's own personality. It's a complex, magical process, which must contain fluidity that will start spinning the wheel.

FALL 2009 ™

We all have a desire to have friends. It is what makes us reach out of our shells and take the chance of being hurt. It is not easy figuring out who is a friend and who is not. I believe Maluz, to be a true friend. We met in high school and have known each other for almost eight years. Maluz and I have been through many good and hard times together. In addition, we have experienced so many adventures together.

I consider Maluz to be a true friend. A true friend is there for you when you need them. To have a true friend is a remarkable thing. To find someone that shares similar interests, who cares about who you are and what you are doing. A true friend is there for you when you need them. Someone who you are not embarrassed to cry in front of, who you can tell the deepest darkest secrets to and know they will be safe. An old rule of thumb is that a true friend is someone you can call after months or even years, and speak as if not a day had passed. Maluz and I have experienced this, we were parted from each other for about a year and half while she was in Japan to spend some time with her family. Once we came in contact with each other, it was as though we never skipped a beat.

True friends come along so rarely, and I am so thankful to have met her that we must move past anything that threatens them and see the big picture. Without our friendships, we are indeed lost. Whatever happens, we should always keep our true friends close to our heart. Tell them how much they mean to you. Do not let them slip away. If they do, go out and get them back. The bonds we make during these days will serve to keep us going in the months and years ahead.

SUMMER 2009 ™

There are many types of people in the world and many types of friends. Knowing that, it becomes all the more important to select the right people so that one might have the correct friends.

A Mother's Love.

Nothing comes close to getting love that a mother has for her children. Most women are great mothers to their children. Women that carry their children before they are born and then continue to take care of them throughout their childhood and even into adulthood. Moms make sure that their children are safe and happy throughout their childhood.

It is the unconditional love that a mother feels for her children that drives these feelings. It is hard to describe the feeling that a mom has towards her children. Most people don’t understand this love unless they are mothers themselves. Raising a child comes with a lot of frustrations, starting the needy new born baby that needs regular care. To a teenager, a mother's job is everything but easy. A famous saying states that "God could not be everywhere and so he invented mothers", these words are an inspiration to mothers all across the world. A mother puts her children before anything else, including their own comfort and happiness.

Mothers give a lot of support to their child, whether it is visible support or background encouragement. Not only do mothers support their children, but they hold the whole family structure together. This role is not always plain sailing. Mother’s can also be mad or hurt. Mother’s often take the fallout for the toddler tantrums and the teenage angst. Despite this, our moms will love us no matter what we do.

Mothers were meant to be the cheerleaders for their children, sometimes in loud and visible ways, sometimes in unspoken way in the background. Mothers can often be the backbone of families. A mother’s job is not always the easiest one. Moms have to make sacrifices and can also have their hearts broken. The great thing about mothers is that they usually understand and love their kids in all ways.

The heart of a Mom is an abyss - where deep down you'll always find forgiveness.

LDR - Long Distance Relationships

If you’re troubled whether your long distance relationship will last long enough or not, you are not alone. The sad truth is, no one really bothers to acknowledge the difficulties of keeping up a long distance relationship – people think it’s downright absurd and is bound for a breakup anyway. My parents, best friends, co-workers or classmates might have told me over and over again that it’s never going to work.

So I said to myself: "Go on. Maintain the long distance relationship. Prove everybody wrong." But as I said, it gets difficult sometimes. At first, I didn’t know what to do. I’m going out of my mind. I’m 23 and he’s only 19. Trust issues are going out of hand.

Oh well. Que sera sera. The future is not ours to see.

It’s really hard to maintain a long distance relationship. Simply because it's different when my guy is here with me. We can hug and kisses are real. Now that he's far we can't do that anymore. Holding on to the mantra “distance makes the heart grow fonder” began to give me doubts. But what I forgot was technology. Technology closes that gap. Thanks to the internet, keeping in touch with my sweetheart abroad isn't as expensive as other modes of communication in the past. We exchange e-mails, chat and call each other or flood each other’s social networking site with sweet nothings.

I must say, it had been a very tough long distance relationship, but we managed. We kept the relationship alive for almost two years, and now, he's back here with me. For good. I’ve never been happier than I am right now. Never more loved, more appreciated, and more at peace with the world. We have come such a long way from being separated by copious amounts of sea and being unsure, scared, and anxious to where we are now. Comfortable, contented and best of all, secure.

Long distance relationships may sound unusual and challenging – but it’s not impossible. Distance is not a setback. Distance should not be the basis to end a relationship. Distance should be defied and considered as a test to make the bond stronger.

I ACHE FOR YOU

I woke up today feeling a little bit restless. I slept late last night because I was going over every detail on why you were so mad at me. I still want to sleep this through but my Mom was calling me over which means I can't.

Bored. Tired. Melancholic.

My back is aching like crazy. Back pain is acting up again.

I decided to jump out of bed and log - in to my Facebook and Twitter accounts. Crossing my fingers and hoping that you left me a message. To much disbelief, I found nothing.

Why is it so hard to be your girlfriend? I know that you're too young for me, but why did my other relationships lasted long? Heck, I don't know what to do here. So I texted your aunt and asked her where you were (trust me, I regretted I ever made that message), I was really hoping that you'd be home, but you weren't. I was biding my time and waiting for a text from you.

Today, I met your pride.

Wow. Speechless.

It's amazing how long you can go by without texting me.

I broke up with you because I can't take it anymore. I refuse to settle for less.

Maybe it's for the best, maybe it isn't. My point is, GOODBYE.

ALONE.

I have found almost everything about love to be true. Shakespeare said; "Journeys end in lovers meeting". What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I'm constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives.

It was Shakespeare who also said; "Love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some, quite inexplicably, love fades. For others, love is simply lost. But then, of course, love can also be found, even just for a night. And then, there's another kind of love, the cruelest kind; it's called unrequited love.

Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us who falls in love alone?

What then?

Maybe my happy ending doesn't include a wonderful guy. Maybe it's me, on my own, picking up the pieces and starting over. Freeing myself up for something better in the future.

Maybe my happy ending is just moving on.

Melancholic Thursday.

"There's always some madness in love, but, there's also some reason in madness." - Nietzsche
 

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places that I didn't know I had inside me. It doesn't matter how many haircuts or gyms I join, or how many cases of beer I drink with my friends, I still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what I did wrong or how could I have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment I could think that I was happy.

Sometimes, I even convince myself that he'll see the light and show up at my door. And after all that, however long "all that" may be, I know I'll go somewhere new. I will meet people who will make me feel worthwhile again, and little pieces of my soul will finally come back.

All that fuzzy stuff, those years of my life that I wasted, they will eventually begin to fade.

by: samandmiko.blogspot.com

SUNDAY AFTERNOON

Here I am, waiting for a text
A text from you saying you're okay
And there you are working on your desk
Not minding your cellphone
With three messages from me.

Here I am in my apartment
Where I have been smoking this sadness out
And there you are a hundred miles away from here
Have you been preoccupied?
Without any thoughts of me.

Here are my peers, saying it'll be okay
With all of my doubts not believing it will be
And there you are happy as a bee
Did you find someone
Much more better than me?

Here I am ever so hopeless
Wishfully thinking that you and I will be
More than friends you and me.
I'll let every teardrop fall down my cheek
To show the world I cried for love.

:c

HOPE.

I know, what was I thinking, right?

I'm happy, I'm content, now my life makes perfect sense - but I was completely wrong. 

I lay in bed, thinking about you all night. Are we on the same page? As I think about you, I always see that crooked smile. A smile I love. A smile that's like a key to a secret door that only kindred spirits could enter. 

But now I feel so alone. I never thought someone could possibly feel this grief. Can I endure all this agony? I should've expected right from the start - no, I should've restrained myself from you. No man will ever take me seriously. I mean, what was I thinking - presuming anything from you? 

I tried to perceive that excruciating feeling you made me feel. But you lost me there. My mind was hiding in the shadows. I held the blackness of nonexistence at bay by inches. My heart was sinking in the ocean of sorrows. I'm not Atlas, but it seems that the world is pressing down on me. Is this how if feels to be emotionally spurned?

I tried to contemplate on what you were saying. But I couldn't bare it. I listened hard. Something sharper than knives ripped through me—the words, making sense in spite of the other anguish.

Reality had come on so fast.

And, for a never-ending space, that was all there was. Just the fiery torture. Nothing else, not even time. So that made it infinite, with no beginning and no end. One infinite moment of pain.

The pain was bewildering.

Let me die, let me die, let me die.

How long had passed? Seconds or minutes? Numb. I couldn’t feel. I still couldn’t see, either, but I could hear.

But I know myself better than that! I know that this numbing feeling will pass. What's there to hold on to? So now I'd like to believe that time will heal.

Hopefully.

Friends are forever.

Maler, words can't even describe how thankful I am to you. You have helped me a lot, and I do mean a lot. You have helped me financially, psychologically, emotionally and spiritually, to say the least. You are my safe border every time the world is at its cruelest. You have been there for me from the start, and I know that you are going to be there with me - fight to the finish. 

Sometimes I'd think why are we even best friends. And then it struck me. The reason behind all our arguments are our differences. And that's what made us tick. What other best friends have been through could not compare on what we have undergone. And this somewhat made me whole.

And when there's a word that would express my gratitude to you, I would definitely use it. But for now, I'd say; Thank You. Thank you for sticking with me. Thank you for speaking up for me. And thank you for walking with me, in this narrow road I call life.

You have been my friend for almost six years now, and you have been my best friend. But now, I thought, no, you are not my best friend, you're my soul sister. |

" Yel, mana mi, mangaon nata, so anhi na sa carindirs.".

That is the first message Ming sends me everyday. It's the message that reminded me that I have to hit the showers. The message that reminds me of a new day - a new day full of hope.

Ming has always been my uplifter, even though there's no reason waking up tomorrow morning. He helped me understand the world and its full context. From boys, to sex, to magic, to God, to science - name it, and he readies a full laid answer that puts you out of your misery.

Don't belittle yourself Ming, because, I, we, are grateful to have you in our lives. And i know that someone, somewhere - that goes by the code name, Lex Luthor - is grateful having you around.

How can I ever forget you Ming? I mean, who could forget Ming? Who could ever forget this vicious diva! |

Nicole is the wackiest and silliest friend anyone can have.

Nicole has been my delusional friend and my "about to loose her mind" friend. And I love her for that.

Kul, you are the one that keeps on reminding me that there is going to be tomorrow. You are the one that comforts me, when I need a friend. And the one that reminded me and assured me that I have a friend named Nicole Teves, at times when I think that everyone was giving up on me.

How do you do it Kul? You let problems slip by so easy. You let me think that sorrow was last week's emotion with one crack of a joke. And when I get bored, I'd just sing; " Ayaw pang luod kay wa nakoy load, ayaw pag mahay kay wa koy reply". *laughs

You truly are the cherry on top; the life of the party. |

" Ka hot ni DK ui."

Now there's something you don't hear everyday. And on who else's mouth can you hear those words? None other than Brhya's.

But beneath her really twisted mind, lies a very soft heart.

Was I right in that description? Or was I just blinded by the mask Brhya shows us all?

It's just that sometimes I'd think whether she likes me or not. But then she'll flash that "innocent" smile to you and says, "love love". Then you are smiling again.

Brhya Paige, you have been always been offering your help to me without hesitation. That you'd stop what you're doing just to see me at McDonald's or at Starbucks every time I felt so alone. You have been always so loving and caring, and I admired you for that. And who else would call me "Yela dear"? With that, and above all, I know you are a friend. BTW, I'm sorry if I haven't changed the polish of my nail yet - I have been so busy. *laughs

Don't ever show her a broken nail, or an unpolished finger. Or she will draw you a threatening map to Jeeb's. |

"Guys always notice me because of my boobs".

Oops, Gj did it again. Duher? Who would not notice her boobs? Even dogs go drooling, when Gj is around. Who would not stare at those perfectly curved and perfectly crafted boobs of hers.

Gij, I couldn't describe you more - other than my twilight saga buddy".
You have understood my love for Edward Cullen, and you have been speaking up for me - when I can't think of a perfect comeback - from our critic friends, whenever the subject crossed our minds. 

You have always been so thoughtful Gij. The way you speak; that childish voice of yours soothes me and relaxes me and makes me forget about today's problems. 

I love you, you know that, right? |

"I miss you is an overused phrase, but when Ynez says this to you, it feels just quite right.

Nez, you have understood me and loved me even if I'm not an ordinary friend. You have always been so kind to me, and I appreciate that. 

You have always been there, eager enough to listen to me - I may descibe you as my listening ear. You have been there to listen to me, at times when everyone doesn't even care to bother.

Don't change that Nez, because I have always appreciated that trait of yours. |

And of course; Pagee.

Pagee possesses that bubbly aura and happy go lucky personality - of which I am very thankful.

Pagee, you have always been a comfort to me. Your smile that is like heaven. Your wide smile against your chubby cheeks that had always been like a key to a secret door where only kindred spirits could enter. 

You have always been there Pagee. You have always been so generous, so eager to know on what's been bothering me. You have always been a good counselor when I need one - more like my mom actually.

I hope you won't be bothered about me resting my head on your boobs, because I will always be doing that for the rest of my life. |


I thank you all for those encouragements that helped me finished this book.

JK!!

Friends, I may not say much but I love you all. And you all should know that there's always a special seat for you in my hypothalamus.

To my closest friends.

Marings, you guys have played a very important role in my life today, and I want to thank you all, for always and constantly being there for me. You guys are the strength that I take in. I may not say much, but I love you.

Daimpaul was the first one I really got to know. And before I knew her, I knew that she's going to be a great friend. I find her extremely sexy; I can even remember having a crush on her. HAHA. ..Maring, you have always been so caring and loving; I have always and will be appreciating that. You offered a hand at times when I needed help without asking so much in return. You lent your shoulders for me to cry on, for which I am forever grateful.

To Joder: You have been my call and texting buddy. "ano ba, big brother" is a phrase I got from you. I have revered every moment I had spent with you. You have brought delight within me that I have never wished unlocked. You have been there from the start, and I know you'll always be there for me. You have been my companion in getting a fake a receipt, and a friend when my bag was snatched. HAHA. But yet, we were so happy. You have always been helpful to me - that I can seem to test.

Mitsilog: Maring, I can't dare to start this without super thanking you for all of the things that you have done for me. So thank you. You have helped me a lot; A LOT. You have introduced me to your loving parents for which I am also thankful. You and your parents have injected within me the value of turning to God, and working hard. Again, thank you. You have always been there for me, in times that are both good and bad. What is more to ask from a friend like you. You have inserted in my mind the thought that life is good; and thus it is worth living.

Mau brought joy and compassion in me and to the life of others. ..Maring, you have always made me laugh at times when I was near ground. You were always so concern and caring; which I most love about you. Thank you for feeding me and for constantly checking up on me. You have helped me, though through small things, but I thank you big time.

To Pyk and Shaira whom I just got close to; thank you. Thank you Pyk for the laughs and advices that you gave. And to Shaira, the wits, guts and sense of humor that I fervor of you. 


From the words of wisdom, to caring and loving me, Thank You Friends. I so much want to freeze time whenever I am with you all. I hope I never caused trouble, harm and hassles Marings, because that is what I'll most regret in my life. I said "thank you" a lot of times and I'm going to say it again. Thank You Friends. And I love you without any medications.


:D